No, but really, it is all about love. The world we live in is in seemingly constant chaos, and the only way to navigate through is to keep pushing on by giving and receiving love in whatever way we are able on a daily basis. This thought, which is so central to the thinking in today's world, is in many ways good. And in others it is the main thing keeping us from living the way that we should.
Here is the problem: we have taken love from the most wonderful thing in the world, a thing which is about sacrifice and giving completely of oneself in order to allow the beloved to reach their fullest potential and have joy for all of eternity and reduced it to seeking pleasure. Instead of love dying on a cross, we look for love which makes me happy. Instead of a love which says "not my will but Yours," we look for a love which says, "whatever common ground we can find to give us both immediate satisfaction, let's take that." Amid all of this, then, the Catholic Church and anyone who says that love is about self-sacrifice and not self-gratification are seen as the enemies, pointing us away from the here and now and towards eternity, which of course is scary and not to be talked about (read Bad Catholic's wonderful explanation of this here: Popular Music as a Nauseating, No Good, Very Bad Attempt at Propping Up a False Sense of Eternity (With Goats)).
Let me try and explain in a language we all understand a little bit more than my incoherent ramblings: movies.
Recently I watched the movie "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." The main theme of this story, I think, is one that the teacher played by Paul Rudd (who somehow has appeared in 97.9% (ish) of every movie made in the last 5 years (that number might be made up)) explains to the main character when he says that, as human beings, "we accept the love we think we deserve." I think that there is so much truth to this it is silly. We tend to have a hard time falling in love with or letting ourselves be loved by the God of the universe because we see ourselves as broken and sinful and can't imagine the All-Powerful God loving us; we don't want to accept a spouse who will love us unconditionally and sacrificially because we see ourselves as being conditional and selfish beings, and so on. In that sense, I think that the Perks of Being a Wallflower and author Stephen Chbosky are right on.
The problem I see, though, is with how the characters play out this search love. For Charlie, the main character, his experience of seeking after the love he deserves and the love those around him deserve is distorted in the way that early adolescence tends to distort things in our human minds. More than adolescence, though, his searching for love is distorted by the thing that seems so prominent in today's culture that it is almost unavoidable: love is about the satisfaction in the here and now. [There might be some spoilers here] For Charlie, this encounter and searching for love is about the here and now. From making new friends to taking drugs and ultimately to a "beautiful" one-night stand with the girl he loves (I put beautiful in quotes to make you realize that I don't think it is beautiful, I think the book and movie attempt to show it this way). This story, supposed to be the coming of age story of a generation, shows the major problem that we have with love (and that I think Marc at Bad Catholic pointed out in that article I linked to above), which is that in our search for something so eternal as love we settle on the temporal. We seek pleasure as our means to self-satisfaction, when really it is simply a mind-numbing technique to help us not think about the fact that we are seeking self-interest, which is actually contrary to love.
So, here is my point: when you really want to seek love, don't seek yourself. Don't seek pleasure. Don't seek momentary experiences. Seek the other. Seek self-sacrifice. Instead of trying to feel infinite for a moment, seek a relationship with Him who is infinite, Him who is eternal, Him who will never stop running after you.
It might be hard, but it'll be worth it. It will be worth it because when you seek after the eternal God, you will find yourself not wallowing in self-pity and a desire to make yourself happy, but a relationship with the God who will never leave you broken, but rather will always search for you in love, hoping to show you how to respond to Him and to be with Him for all of eternity.
When you seek yourself, that's what you'll get; when you seek true love by giving yourself away, you'll find the God of the universe, and He'll give you way more than some one-night stand can give you.
"Dear young people, the happiness you are seeking, the happiness you have a right to enjoy has a name and a face: it is Jesus of Nazareth, hidden in the Eucharist. Only he gives the fullness of life to humanity! With Mary, say your own "yes" to God, for he wishes to give himself to you." -Pope Benedict XVI
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